dear old friend

hey there dear old friend of mine
i was starting to miss you
you went a away
thought that you were done with me
things got so messed up
the first time around
during my first performance
and i blamed you
said it was all your fault
turned my back on you
but here you stand
stronger than ever
giving me a second chance
but i don't know if i am ready yet
old friend we've done this dance once before
and it turned up on the opposite side of good
got rid of my old partner
i am starting think that i am better as a solo artist
i am stronger than before
i am smarter than before
but tougher than before
and i may be a little harder than before
almost picked up some bad recruits along the way
but you stayed by my side whispering in my ear
that i could do better
well dear old friend
the floor is empty and
i've put back on my dancing shoes
let's see if we can make magic again

list maker

task master

slave to the clock

learned to let go

and hold my arms up on roller coasters

throw my head back when i laugh

walk barefoot in the grass

so that i can feel it in between my toes

put off the unimportant for later

and eat ice cream for breakfast

watch cartoons to unwind

no longer striving for perfection

that's an attribute that i no longer want to have

go to the beach at night

just to hear the crashing of the waves

and to see how big they are

they keep me humble

they remind me how small i really am

but help me remember that i am....

for a moment

even though it might have just been for a moment
i smell it in my hair
still feel it on my skin
and it visits me in my dreams
it may have faded to a memory
but it was what it was...
even if it was for a just a moment
but had i known
that it was just going to be a for a moment
i would've frozen time
taken a picture
made sure that i captured every expression
saw every smile
and remembered every word
even if it was just for a moment....

mr. lonestar

Mr. Lonestar
Old man’s soul
With thinking eyes
A smile
That tastes like the rainbow
Tall and solid
An inspiration
Makes your mind expand
Large hands
So soft and gentle
Silent attention getter
Much more than he thinks he is
With words so amazing
That you can get lost in them
And go somewhere else
A welcomed unexpected
That gets stuck in your mind
Like your favorite song

Little Miss Sunshine

little miss sunshine is every one's favorite girl
riding on trains, planes, and automobiles
on her way to unknown places
not sure of what's waiting around the corner

the goals are decided and
the plans are made
there are no detours for little miss sunshine
she is heading down a one way road paved with gold

little miss sunshine
is so focused everything is so clear
and laid out for her
a fan favorite
they are left in the dark unable to see
that she's only perfect at being imperfect

little miss sunshine wants to be able to have a bad day
and feel as though it's okay to complain
take the smile plastered on her face off
remove the weight of the world from her shoulders
and have them massaged

little miss sunshine is wearing thin
tired of everyone holding the ideal life sign
over her head
little miss sunshine is no hero
she gets tired of other people's expectations, frustrated,
and wants to quit sometimes
she gets weary, cries silent tears, and screams to no one
sometimes desires to just drop the mike and walk off stage
in the middle of her performance

little miss sunshine is
making plans about taking chances
wanting to jump in feet first
but trying to test the waters
at the same time

little miss sunshine once so sure
now has had things turned upside down
thinking about running, jumping,tumbling, and flying
all at the same time

little miss sunshine filled with so many words
is left speechless
and feeling like turning against the norm
turned by something so simple
woke up in the morning
didn't know who was looking back at her in the mirror
all was there was an unsure face
confused about what was going on inside

losing grip on the one thing she thought that she could control
it was hers only to keep close
made the mistake of letting it slip out
there's no turning back little miss sunshine

little miss sunshine who writes her secrets on sheets of paper
and places her feelings on display for strangers to see
but not for anyone in arms length to hear
is clear as day if you read in between the lines

little miss sunshine once riding in trains, planes, and automobiles
now chasing trains, planes, and automobiles
in hopes that they can take where she needs to be
where she fits...