it is what it is

“…got my middle finger up, I don’t really give a f* *k…”
I think that part of me
Might be turning into something….
That I never wanted to
Something cold and untouchable
I’d be lying if I didn’t say
That you did not do a number on me
Put a dent in my optimism
Now, when I am asked
How can I go on like I do
Keep my separate heart from him
Not make a choice
I just say that I have had practice
Perfected no expectations
And got a PhD in the dirty looking glass
Stick and jab, stick and jab
Cover your head and keep moving…

tree.

Time to face facts
Actually this is not a new revelation
This has been going on
For far too long
I just had it pointed out to me out loud
In the worse way
The way that left me wondering if they were right
But I’d never tell them that they were
I’m in need of major weaning
Sometimes I wonder if I should just quit cold turkey
But if I do I’d be cutting out more than a portion of my heart
I’d be eliminating a friend
I know a decision has to be made soon
If I were talking to someone else in my situation
I’d tell hem to make a decision and stick to it
Decisions are just so….
FINAL
But I can’t detach myself
Honestly, part of me hates to give up
All of our raw and unfiltered honesty
My biggest fear is to make a clean cut
Right before my number got called

“It is like you were my favorite drug; problem is you were using me in a different way that I was using you….”

SEASONS by D. Lawrence

I feel the seasons everywhere
And I feel blessings in the air
Those seeds you have sown
You're gonna come into your own.
Seasons, walk into your season.
I feel seasons everywhere
I feel blessings in the air
Those seasons you have sown
You're gonna come into your own.
Seasons, walk into your season
Walk into your season.
I believe we're in a time when God's gonna bless the saints.
Those who have stayed,
those who have prayed
He's going to fulfill the promise He made.
For I heard the Spirit say, its your time.
The wait is over, Walk into your season.
I feel seasons everywhere. I feel blessings in the air.
Those seasons you have sown
You're gonna come into your own,
Seasons, walk into your season
Walk into your season I
know that you invested a lot
The return has been slow
You throw up your hands and say I give up
I just can't take it anymore.
But, I hear the Spirit say
That it's your time, the wait is over
Walk into your season
You survive the worst of times
God was always on your side
Stake you claim, write your name
Walk into this wealthy place.
The wait is over; its your time

because i know that you used to read this...

I know that I’m the one who played us
I used you
To help me get over the
One before you
I took you for granted
And
Put your feelings before my own
I wanted you to erase what he did to me
Help me forget
How much I really cared for him
I was never all in
But I led you believe that
I was
I just needed a place to rest my heart
For a while
I need to be taken of
I put everything on you
When my secret started to be exposed
I made you feel like it was your fault
That I couldn’t break through the wall
All the while knowing that your needs
Did not matter
And you were temporary
From the beginning
All I can say is
That I’m sorry

p.s. i love you

I love you
And it drives me crazy
What you do to me
The way my hearts jumps
When I see your name in my inbox
Or the way a goofy smile
Gets plastered on my face
When you name appears on my phone
Your smell, touch, hugs
I want them all to belong to me
My heart, mind, body
Are all yours for the taking
I love you
And you’ll probably never know it

mr. west is the building

//Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me/I don't want you, but I need you,/I love you and I hate you at the very same time/See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad/Never did this before, thats what the virgin said/We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says/God talk to me now this is an emergency//



Bittersweet: Kanye West

thoughts on my heart

Do you ever sit and wonder
How did I get here?
Back to a place that I thought I’d never be again
In limbo
Not sure of what to do
Trying to figure out
If I could put my expectations on hold
Sometimes a lesson learned
Is not always a lesson learned
Wondering if this is it for me
If this is all that is meant to be
Will I always prepped for the race
Committed to team
But never ever to reach the finish line
Forced to always sit on the bench

Dr. Jigga

“I used to give a fuck, now I give a fuck less”
Jigga said sometimes you have to let that thing breathe
In the past three years
I have been up, down, depressed, overwhelmed,

happy, fearful, on the edge, excited, scared, in love, lonely, and claustrophobic
I’ve been accused of being too laid back
Uncaring
But that’s not it
I have learned not to take things home with me
Work stays at work
If an assignment does not get done
I go to sleep and wake up the next day ready to pound it out
I’ve learned to hope for the best
If I feel like driving slow in the rain while Lionel fills my car
I do so
I’ve learned to let my feelings become my feelings
No one owns them anymore
I’ve made me responsible for me
“I used to give a shit, but now I don’t give a shit more…”

love/hate

There are times that you are my worst enemy
And I hate you
I am obsessed with you
Watching your every move
Hoping that things work in my favor
Sometimes I need more from you
There are times that I wish you’d speed up
I hate how you can control me
And wish that you would just go away
I look for you
Depend on you
Wait for you

I can't stand you
TIME

weezy baby

“You knew all about me baby, but you weren’t about me baby…”
I never though that there would be a day that I would be quoting Lil’ Wayne, but his words though simple, hold a lot of power. I always try and figure out how I end up back here…how WE end up back here. A friend brought it o my attention the other day…it began here and it not matter how many stops and detours I make end up back here. Back here in this same soot, with the same questions, and battling the same dilemma. Wondering how much you know and how much you have decided to ignore. The L word passes between us on a regular basis and filters are non existent, but yet we always seem to be stuck in limbo. Will this always be us? Will we continue to go on different paths only to return here over and over again? “You knew all about me baby, but you weren’t about me baby…”

i don't miss you

Tonight is one of those nights
That I think about all the things that I miss
His voice
The way my lips felt
On his scruffy cheeks
His kisses
I miss the sound of his laugh
Telling me his secrets
And me with no filter
His personal scent
That drove me crazy
And that sometimes still sneaks up on me
The way he knew me
The smoothness of his stomach
The strength of his arms
How I wanted him all of the time
The wideness of his back
They way he could always make me smile
With just a look
How I fit perfectly under him
When we slept
The richness of his skin
The way I couldn’t wait
to fall in love with him
I miss the way
That I used to be able to tell him
All of these things

never ending

We always come to this
Say that we are going to
Step away
And go our separate ways
But we always return
To here
This place
In this way

full circle

I think that things have finally come full circle
We’ve experienced almost everything possible
While laying it all out for each other
To see
We have returned to where we started
Sometimes where I where I think
That we should’ve stayed
I’m here with open eyes
And no expectations
No matter what happened from here
From this spot
We should never stray
Because this where we seem to be
At our best

until next time...

i always knew that

you'd leave in summer

but it still doesn't make it easier

i wasn't ready

more

And you came in to my life
Unexpectedly
Settling in quietly
But you made your presence known
Leaving an imprint on my heart
Consuming my thoughts
And residing in my dreams
Anticipating conversations
And visits in the grey goose
Leaving me wanting more
And more
And more
But just as quickly and quietly
That you came into my life
You had to exit
Leaving me waiting and wondering
If I’d ever get the answer to my questions
Leaving me still
Wanting more
And more
And more

my favorite flavor

It’s something about the way you look
One glance
And my body begins to tingle
And my mouth begins to crave you
I just want you in my possession
As much as possible
So that I can devour you
Every chance that I get
So smooth and rich
I taste you in my dreams
Arm to arm we are opposites
My daytime to your night
My friends don’t understand my fascination with you
Those others are just temporary distractions
Because there is really only one for me
She sang it
But I mean it
Your flavor is the sweetest thing in life
I’m addicted to your chocolate high

try again

Sheryl put it best
When she sang
“I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But
The first cut is the deepest”
Because I have felt heartache
DEEP
Took the time I needed
Just to be alone with me
And figure out what was important for me
Afraid and unsure
I stepped out on the ledge
Blindly
Not knowing what to expect
Ended up having a few great months
While getting caught up in something
That left me feeling disappointed
And second guessing
My decisions and my judgment
To try again
And I wondered if this relationship stuff was for me
After all
Then I remembered the rest of Sheryl’s song
“I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cuz if you want I'll try to love again”
I think I can try again

without a compass

Sometimes I feel like
I am walking the Earth
Following a map that I
Cannot read
The directions are right in front of me
But nothing makes any sense
I’ve done everything that I was supposed to do
Up until this point
But as I watched her leave this earth
Right before my eyes
I knew that I was changed
The plan
Doesn’t seem like much of a plan anymore
What I thought really mattered
I figured out can take a back seat
My heart
Is my heart again
No longer hoping that my feelings
Will become his feelings
What will be will be
But sometimes I just feel so lost
No longer sure of where I belong

wait

Smelling your familiar scent
I began to get to get nervous
Unsure of myself
It’s been so long
You touch me there
In that spot
That has your name written on it
I shiver
Can’t remember the last time
That I’ve felt this way
Wanted it
This way
Your hands are all
I can think about
Sensing my nervousness
You pull me closer to you
I tell you
How long it has been
You kiss me
Telling every inch of my body
That it was going to be okay
You gently take the lead
Fingers…
Tongue….
I begin to get them confused
As they start to leave their mark
I try to remember
What I was I wearing
But then
Other things take over my
mind
My body hungry
My neck hot
My breasts swelling
Queenie throbbing
My head is saying that I should
Be playing hard to get
My heart is saying
This is right
And my body
Is hoping that you don’t stop
You ask me to open my eyes
and I see you staring at me
and then I know
That it’s been worth the wait

XXVI

I’m 26
DANG
I spent my 26th birthday
The way that I spent my 16th
On a beach in Nassau, Bahamas
One of my favorite places in the world
Not because of the weather
Because it’s the same as home
But because
It is truly special
It brought me out of a funk when I was 16
Helped with a broken heart when I was 20
Allowed me to find my laugh again at 25
And reminded me to count my blessings everyday
At 26
I’m 26
WOW
The last half of 25 was a whirl wind
I was on hand to experience history
I cried and I laughed
I lost and I gained
I was let down and disappointed
I excelled
I tiptoed around falling in love again
I hurt someone
And I got hurt
Re-found confidence and security after leaving
Them on a park bench for a brief moment
I wonder how 26 is going to start
26
SERIOUSLY I’m 26
I have decided to hold on to my realism
Mixed with optimism and fantasy
For at least one more year
I’m positive that the older I get
The better I get
I’m going to keep my heart open
Despite the caution tape that’s in front of me
Embrace what makes me
Patience
I’ll treasure every moment
And capture every dream
That 26 brings

notebook...

NOTEBOOK
By: Chrisette Michele

I'm feeling you, you feeling me
But still we can't be together
I got a feeling
You got these same feelings
Too bad we can't feel 'em together

I sit on my bed and wonder
How it'd be if you were mine
I think of you like no other
Here's what I do every night...

Write in my notebook
X's and O's
Beside your name
Only my notebook knows how I feel
My heart is on every page

Do you have any idea
How hard it is to act like you don't mean a thing and
This chemistry between you & me
I wanna share with everyone
All I can do is just write down every emotion I feel
Hopefully one day you'll find out
My love for you is real

Write in my notebook
X's and O's
Beside your name
Only my notebook knows how I feel
My heart is on every page

So many times I must have loved & lost (I've patched up every one)
So many times I've let love walk by (I've let love go by)
This time's it's going to be different (it's gonna be different this time)
Take my notebook
Read everything in my mind
So I...

Write in my notebook
X's and O's
Beside your name
Only my notebook knows how I feel
My heart is on every page

Don't Know What To Do

Living between a rock and hard place
Sometimes I just don’t know what to do
Pissed
Over the power that he still possess
Even after all of the years that have passed
At a loss

About where my head is
I went from being ignored, to being choked,

to being stared at from behind the bushes
None of that made me happy
Just made me move further away
Confused
I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel
But now I am not sure which tunnel to follow
Sad
That I still look in the bedroom on the first floor
For my first welcome home greeting of the day
Wishing
That my heart could slow down
And that my head could get clear
Long enough to focus

And shake him off
Tired
Of not knowing what to do

Screaming inside for some direction

For a map

1. I am a serious creature of habit during the work week. I wake up the same time every day, eat the same lunch, and pretty much do the same routine every day.
2. I walk around writing poems in my head all day and most of them never see paper.
3. I can’t take my lap top to class because it’ll distract me the whole night. Case in point last night i spent the whole night on yahoo chat and watching gamecast while something was occuring in front of the classroom.
4. My head is not built for hats (thanks daddy).
5. I am slightly obsessed with Yoplait yogurt.
6. I’m one of the uncoolest people ever lol.
7. I love my lunch time ladies they make the work day more bearable.
8. Nothing is better than a good kiss.
9. Cursing makes me feel awkward.
10. I don’t like the taste of dark chocolate, but I love the look of milk chocolate (wink).
11. I can’t stand disrespectful children and adults that allow them to be disrespectful.
12. My favorite roc-docs are “The Jacksons: the American Dream” and “The Temptations” I could watch those two movies ooops i mean mini-series all day.
13. I’ve never been envious of other females…except two. My sisters. My entire life they have commanded attention just by showing up.
14. I am a modern woman, feminist, bra burner or whatever you want to call it but I am a traditionalist too in some ways.
15. I’m a realist with high levels of optimism.
16. I read the sexiest blog today titled “I f*#*ked her with a Pen” I literally broke out in a sweat over it.
17. It only took two years, but I think my co-workers finally understand that I am not big on morning conversations. If it’s not about work business, holla at me around 10 am.
18. People think I am funny, but I’m really not.
19. You can often tell my mood by what music I am listening to. If Winehouse is in the air pass me a cup of bleach lol.
20. The ink and the blonde streak…shockers to say the least lol.
21. I hate the taste of coffee.
22. Most people who think they know me have me boxed in one of two extremes and are very far off from who I really am.
23. Some of the greatest people in my life I have met by accident.
24. Contrary to what I’ve been told, I strongly believe that my ideal man does exist (KG with a Cornel brain AKA a brainiac with swag). I think that I have met him, now whether that particular he is for me is another thing.
25. Ice cream is best eaten outside in the cold.

ramblings from the heart...

You know what it is
When you feel it
It hits you unexpectedly
You try to deny it
Dismiss it
Ignore it
And pretend
Like it’s not there
But the butterflies
Continue to grow
And you begin to find it harder
To hide
Because your heart
Is no longer your own
Things begin to feel out of control
Because you don’t know what to do
And you don’t know how you got here
feeling the worse type of love
the type that you know will be unreturned

P's latest top 21!

*I’ve been feeling some kind of way lately. An emotional quarter-life crisis perhaps? Which has caused a lot of writing, but not much sharing….*

1. I like unsalted peanuts in my yogurt
2. Not a fan of raisins, cranberries, or any shriveled looking fruit
3. I like my okra breaded, not stewed
4. Captain Crabs makes the BEST red kool-aid
5. I’ve been spoiled by South Florida
6. I don’t get how I’m intimidating to other people
7. I’m long overdue for a night trip to the beach
8. I have been having the wackiest dreams
9. This degree is going to be the death of me
10. I’m ready to put my passport to use again
11. I’m ready to build that bridge…
12. I have a hard time admitting that I miss people
13. It gets tough being the pillar sometimes
14. Denece is screaming to come out
15. I love Blue Bell Icecream
16. I hate it when people who have no real intensions of working out hog the machines that I want to use
17. I am fascinated by people who don’t sweat at the gym
18. A lot of times I’m on the outside looking in
19. I don’t understand why my feelings are still growing for you
20. Wade for MVP!
21. Cyclops is more dependable, but Wolverine has that bad boy appeal...

At first being that close to you
Made me feel uncomfortable
Then it made me feel safe
We were puzzle pieces
Pulled me in
And now I can’t escape
I am afraid to tell you the truth
You might run the other way
I think that I may have revealed too much already
But I can’t stop
With you
Things are different
I am
Raheem Devaughn’s Mo Betta comes to mind
The mo betta makes it mo betta…
I wish I knew what to do
And how to do it
Go back to the beginning
This time keeping my head clear
And my heart
In my back pocket
Far away from my sleeve
Cuz it really
Does knock you down...

feeling some kind of way...

Make You Feel My Love

By: Adele

When the rain is blowing in your face

And the whole world is on your case

I would offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear

There is no one to dry your tears

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet

But I would never do you wrong

I've known it from the moment that we met

There's no doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue

I'd go crawling down the avenue

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea

And on the highway of regret

The winds of change are blowing wild and free

You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy make your dreams come true

There aint nothin' that I wouldn't do

Go to the ends of the earth for you

To make you feel my love

today's talk...

I’m asked what it is
That keeps me
Hanging on this long
With no promises
Waiting at the other end
And all I can do
Is shrug my shoulders
Who knows?
I’m asked
If I am…
I laugh as though she is insane
Of course not
I say
Even though I know that I am
Embarrassed to show my hand
And say that
Some days it feels like I am
And that I cannot make it through the day
Without him creeping into my thoughts
Well, what about that one and the other one?
Whatever happened to them?
The new car smell wore off
And now I’m bored
And now I am ready for my next victim
I joke
She continues to press
There are plenty of fish in the sea
So why do you want this one
Knowing what you know?
Why is he so special?
That’s it I say
He is special
I see something in him…
I feel something
That I can’t describe
And until someone else
More special comes along
I’m afraid
That I’m stuck
She asks me
Do you think I’m crazy
For hanging on to this one?
If you’re crazy
I’m crazy
I laugh
You’re following your heart
Despite
Knowing what you know
You have more guts than I do
At least you can tell him
She tells me to make her face the truth
That the chances of her heart’s dreams coming true
Are slim
But I can’t
Because then I’d have to face it as well

the favorites

You were my favorite
I breathed just to be near you
You ate
And I got full on your leftovers
I became your shadow
I disappointed you
And I made myself work harder
I wanted to keep you
Make you feel what I felt
You were my favorite
You wanted to be my favorite
You were willing to stand in line for me
And give me
Your most treasured possession
I disappointed you
Cowardly I ran from you
I wished that I could feel what you felt
You wanted to be my favorite
You could’ve been my favorite
Right people, right time, but
Our hearts
Still belonged to other people
We used each other
To play pretend
I disappointed you
I could not keep up the charade
How I wished that I could feel something
You could’ve been my favorite
You are my favorite
You made me break all of my rules
Made me smile
And my heart full
Overflowing at times
Despite what is…
I disappointed myself
I’ve been split in two
Sometimes wishing
that I did not feel what I do
You are my favorite

An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer

An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer
I’m feeling a little suffocated
Like I’m laying down
And life keeps placing stones on my chest
Holding me down
And things are moving in slow motion
All around me
And I am unable to participate
In life’s activities
For the first time
In along a long time
I feel alone and lonely
An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer
Wishing that I could make
It all better
Wishing that despite what you said
And what you wrote
That you did not make my heart smile
And feel so full
The way that you do
An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer
With a box
Filled with wishes

thoughts

I wish that you could see
What I see
When I look at you
How beautiful I think you are
And the way
I can watch you
For hours in silence
Without
A break
I wish you could feel
How I feel
When I see you
And think about you
The cravings and longings
That run through my body
The desires I put to sleep
Because I only want you
To touch me, hold me, devour me
And see me in my most vulnerable
I hold fear in my heart
Because of the way you
Spin my head around
Without even trying
My life is always
Rush, rush, rush
I want my career right now
I want my degrees right now
I want my money right now
But when it comes to matters of the heart
My feelings and my emotions
I am patient
I am willing to wait for what I want
Until the time is right
All of these
Feelings I hide in my blog
And send through the mail
Hoping that you will see
While hoping that you won’t
sigh

the big chill

I’m laying in the dark
And despite the cool wind
Blowing outside
I’m in bed
On top of the covers
Stripped down

To nothing

Waiting for the a/c and fan

To come together
To cool me off
Like the ice scene from
Do the Right Thing
Thank God for elbows…
My body on fire
Longing
For your lips
Wanting just one more taste
Queenie throbbing
From neglect
Breasts tender
Remembering
My mind
Fantasizing
Caught under your spell
I’m trying so hard
To cool down
But my body
Just won’t let me

random

Silence is my favorite sound
My drugs of choice
Sleep and books
I can’t believe
that she is going to lose her first tooth already
and that she’s going to high school
next year
the two beats of my heart
they are why I am still here
I can’t get over lonestar
And rae stung me twice
My head knows better
But my heart doesn’t
Gas is going up again
You are right
I am an enigma lol
The harder I work
The more unappreciated I feel
Instead of drowning in 100 proof
Turn to Amy, Adele, and Duffy
Those ladies know how to feel
I could kiss you all day
My Monday night kids
I scream, yell, punish, threaten
Yet, they return every week
And as do I
They are why I am still here
Your hugs make me feel so warm
I need more time
I am and will ever be
A SOUTH Florida girl
But I think that it’s time for some new scenery
That expands beyond a week
Sometimes it gets so hard
Too much to carry
When will he realize
That our time has passed?
I’m a news junky
Thin mints are my favorite
You promised me
D and J…
Music to my soul
I’m enough
I love my vanilla crew
They can have fun in a paper bag
Whenever I see green….
I should be doing more
I should be doing better
I love my
Ace, deuce, and front
They always find me
I believe
I try
I remember
I wish could forget
I discovered
That I love the smell of berry stuff
you started calling me denece again
grumble
sigh
Work calls,
But sleep pulls

because i know that you read this...

All you can do is sit and wonder
What happened this time
Reliving every conversation
every interaction
every moment of silence
You try and reassure yourself
By saying
At least I wasn’t you know
At least….
But you know that in reality
That any piece of optimism
That you held onto
Has disappeared
And that your are left
Staring down into a
glass
that is now half empty
and
probably filled with something
100 proof
Wondering
What happened this time
With a blink of your eyes
The weather changed
From sunshine and white fluffy clouds
To grey skies and thunder storms
confusion runs a muck
There are more questions
Than answers
Still so much to be explained

welcome...

A welcomed unexpected
Has taken place
And no matter how much
You might try to resist it
It begins to grow on you
Leaving your heart racing
At the sight of their name
On your phone
You try to brush them off
And label them
Like the others
But they find a way to break through
Your carefully built barrier
One look from them and
Chills run through your body
Feelings that you thought
Were gone from your body
Begin to reappear
And to your surprise
You want to share your most prized possessions
Your space and time
With them
A part you miss them
Together you want time to freeze
So you can hold onto the moment
As long as possible
Before it becomes a memory
They begin to invade your dreams
Night and day

I cried...

I thought that I had lost my words
But I found them
Sitting alone
In my hotel room
I thought that they were gone forever
But they emerged
The day I refound my tears
As I was
Watching M and B dance across
The Presidential seal
I cried
I cried for my great grandmothers who did not get past the third grade
But knew that there was more out there for their children
I cried for my grandmommie
Who got tired of scrubbing white people’s floors
And put herself through college
I cried for myself
Because I thought that I no longer knew how
I cried for the grown men I saw hugging and crying
Standing outside in 17 degree weather in front of the capital building
I cried for myself
Because I am working hard to be what people think I am
I cried
For those who couldn’t be there
I cried
Hoping that I am making my parents proud
I cried
Because it’s hard sometimes to keep going
I cried for those many times I was close to the point
Of no return
I cried for
M and B’s love
I cried for my head
Because it knows better
And my heart because
It doesn’t
I cried for my heart
Because it was ready to wait
Willing to go the distance
And do whatever it took
Because you were worth it
Correction are worth it
I cried because
There was a time
When someone had me fooled
Into thinking I was worthy of
The foul treatment I was receiving
I cried for my past
And the things that could not be undone
I cried for my future
And its uncertainty
I cried
Because for so long I thought that I couldn’t

not my words...

These words aren’t my own, but I can relate to most of them…

Melt My Heart to Stone by Adele

Right under my feet there’s air made of bricks
Pulls me down turns me weak for you
I find myself repeating like a broken tune
And I’m forever excusing your intentions
And I give in to my pretendings
Which forgive you each time
Without me knowing
They melt my heart to stone
And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head
I’m the only one in love
I’m the only one in love
Each and every time I turn around to leave
I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed
So desperately I try to link it with my head
But instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me
I forgive you once again
Without me knowing
You’ve burnt my heart to stone
And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head
I’m the only one in love
I’m the only one in love
Why do you steal my hand
Whenever I’m standing my own ground
You build me up, then leave me dead
Well I hear your words you made up
So I say your name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head
I’m the only one in love
I’m the only one in love

Your position has changed
But mine has remained the same
But the freedom to express it
Is no longer there
I can no longer say
You can read it if you wanna
All I can do
Is sit and wait
For this time to pass