the favorites

You were my favorite
I breathed just to be near you
You ate
And I got full on your leftovers
I became your shadow
I disappointed you
And I made myself work harder
I wanted to keep you
Make you feel what I felt
You were my favorite
You wanted to be my favorite
You were willing to stand in line for me
And give me
Your most treasured possession
I disappointed you
Cowardly I ran from you
I wished that I could feel what you felt
You wanted to be my favorite
You could’ve been my favorite
Right people, right time, but
Our hearts
Still belonged to other people
We used each other
To play pretend
I disappointed you
I could not keep up the charade
How I wished that I could feel something
You could’ve been my favorite
You are my favorite
You made me break all of my rules
Made me smile
And my heart full
Overflowing at times
Despite what is…
I disappointed myself
I’ve been split in two
Sometimes wishing
that I did not feel what I do
You are my favorite