today's talk...

I’m asked what it is
That keeps me
Hanging on this long
With no promises
Waiting at the other end
And all I can do
Is shrug my shoulders
Who knows?
I’m asked
If I am…
I laugh as though she is insane
Of course not
I say
Even though I know that I am
Embarrassed to show my hand
And say that
Some days it feels like I am
And that I cannot make it through the day
Without him creeping into my thoughts
Well, what about that one and the other one?
Whatever happened to them?
The new car smell wore off
And now I’m bored
And now I am ready for my next victim
I joke
She continues to press
There are plenty of fish in the sea
So why do you want this one
Knowing what you know?
Why is he so special?
That’s it I say
He is special
I see something in him…
I feel something
That I can’t describe
And until someone else
More special comes along
I’m afraid
That I’m stuck
She asks me
Do you think I’m crazy
For hanging on to this one?
If you’re crazy
I’m crazy
I laugh
You’re following your heart
Despite
Knowing what you know
You have more guts than I do
At least you can tell him
She tells me to make her face the truth
That the chances of her heart’s dreams coming true
Are slim
But I can’t
Because then I’d have to face it as well