An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer

An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer
I’m feeling a little suffocated
Like I’m laying down
And life keeps placing stones on my chest
Holding me down
And things are moving in slow motion
All around me
And I am unable to participate
In life’s activities
For the first time
In along a long time
I feel alone and lonely
An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer
Wishing that I could make
It all better
Wishing that despite what you said
And what you wrote
That you did not make my heart smile
And feel so full
The way that you do
An optimistic, realistic, distant dreamer
With a box
Filled with wishes