Don't Know What To Do

Living between a rock and hard place
Sometimes I just don’t know what to do
Pissed
Over the power that he still possess
Even after all of the years that have passed
At a loss

About where my head is
I went from being ignored, to being choked,

to being stared at from behind the bushes
None of that made me happy
Just made me move further away
Confused
I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel
But now I am not sure which tunnel to follow
Sad
That I still look in the bedroom on the first floor
For my first welcome home greeting of the day
Wishing
That my heart could slow down
And that my head could get clear
Long enough to focus

And shake him off
Tired
Of not knowing what to do

Screaming inside for some direction

For a map