because i know that you read this...

All you can do is sit and wonder
What happened this time
Reliving every conversation
every interaction
every moment of silence
You try and reassure yourself
By saying
At least I wasn’t you know
At least….
But you know that in reality
That any piece of optimism
That you held onto
Has disappeared
And that your are left
Staring down into a
glass
that is now half empty
and
probably filled with something
100 proof
Wondering
What happened this time
With a blink of your eyes
The weather changed
From sunshine and white fluffy clouds
To grey skies and thunder storms
confusion runs a muck
There are more questions
Than answers
Still so much to be explained