complicated simplicity

i just don't get it
why i have to take the long way around
instead of the short cut that has been laid out in front of me
things would be so much easier
if i didn't stop thinking rationally when...
if i didn't want more
if i didn't desire that spark
and that instant smile didn't come across my face when...
why can't i just work with what i got
work with what is lined up and is ready for me
all the simplicity i posses goes out the door when...
i thought i knew better
but i know what i want
and i know what i need
but when simplicity has been complicated
by my desires
i have to ask myself...
what am i really doing?