time.

I can feel your eyes following me as I keep checking the time
And I wonder why am I even here
How did we get back here?
Why am I sitting here?
In this spot
That once meant so much to us
Where we shared so many special moments
As you tell me
Once again what I am doing wrong
Making your feelings the center of our conversation
You tell me how
You miss me
You need me
You feel far away from me
You ask me if I still love you
And why am I being so cold
When did I become so selfish?
I just stared at you
Trying to figure out
When was it that I was no longer enough?
I was everything that you asked me to be
Gave you my heart
Gave you my body
Gave you my loyalty
Gave you my time
And it was never enough
I loved you more than I loved myself
Made excuses for you
Told myself that things would get better
You ask me where my head is
Am I lonely?
Is there someone else?
Is that why I won’t give you my time?
I look at you
Forgiveness took up residence a long time ago
But still
I can’t forget
The round object that I tried to force into a square peg
The words you said
The things you forgot
How you made me feel
The things you did
The tears that were wasted
Before, after, and during
The life that I thought I had lost
The pain that I thought would never go away
The damaged goods that I thought I had become
And how I thought that my heart would never be open again
When did I become a second thought?
When did the novelty wear off?
I check the time one more time
As you tell me that you have changed
But all I can do is
Tell you that your time is up