midnight

it's after midnight
and that means that it's the start of a new day
either i am one day closer to my goal
or one day further from what i want to erase
just got a much needed word
late night conversation style for her
early morning for me
from a good friend
who was given to me by another
who throws punches
but is soft with the touch
a hour behind but
who keeps me on my toes
and sees the light at the end of the tunnel for me
when i can't see it for myself
who asks me what am i trying to do with my heart
where do i want to be
is it worth it
is this worth it
is he worth it
why can't i see that i am worth it
what do i want
what do i deserve
what do i need
she reminds me to give it up to HIM
because only HE knows what's best
and as tears try to escape my eyes
she reassures me
that everything that is going to be okay
it's after midnight
and insomnia lays next to me
waiting for its bedtime story
and one of our late night conversations
i'm alone with my deepest thoughts
and my biggest fears
i once again vow to let things go when the sun and the stars kiss
and release them to a higher power