revelations of a coward

i know what i gotta do
but something in me just won't let me
as my mind races faster than my fingers are able to keep up
i know that i shouldn't
but my insides disagree
and they want to
i try my hardest not to weaken to them
but i don't know how much longer i can hold them off
the revelations of a coward i hold inside
my mouth says things that i don't believe
but things that i wear as protective armor
for my audience
for those who turn to me as one whose sand stays in tact
when the waves hit it
revelations of a coward...
i know what i should to do
but here i am
putting all my chips on the table
regardless of the fact that there are no promises
or guarantees waiting in the the horizon
revelations of a coward...
i'm in no rush to get to the end
i'm not trying to move at full speed
i am good moving in slow motion
because i don't want my eyes to be bigger
than my stomach
i still have some work to do within
i'm in no position to bite off more than i can chew
but now i sit here and look
at all of these words
that i've placed in my own personal confessional
only to end up getting tucked away with the the others
in a box labeled revelations of a coward
and i'll wrap myself in prince's pink cashmere
and let jill and corrine talk to me in my sleep