thoughts

I wish that you could see
What I see
When I look at you
How beautiful I think you are
And the way
I can watch you
For hours in silence
Without
A break
I wish you could feel
How I feel
When I see you
And think about you
The cravings and longings
That run through my body
The desires I put to sleep
Because I only want you
To touch me, hold me, devour me
And see me in my most vulnerable
I hold fear in my heart
Because of the way you
Spin my head around
Without even trying
My life is always
Rush, rush, rush
I want my career right now
I want my degrees right now
I want my money right now
But when it comes to matters of the heart
My feelings and my emotions
I am patient
I am willing to wait for what I want
Until the time is right
All of these
Feelings I hide in my blog
And send through the mail
Hoping that you will see
While hoping that you won’t
sigh