i tonight i took my heart off of my sleeve
and looked at it
saw the bruises
and also the smooth spots
felt warm
then it turned cold
i put it to my ear
each beat told a story
it cried
and laughed
all at the same time
whispered regrets
told of kept secrets
boasted of conquest
thought about times of pleasure
relived times it felt humiliated
begged for me to take it off my sleeve
and put it away for safe keeping
said that it was time
because no one was coming to fix it
forced me to look at myself
it screamed that it was time for me to let go
all the love i thought that was mine
is now going out to others
left me wondering if i was being silly
was i really that blind
holding on to empty promises
and false words
mixed with
untrue feelings
am i in so deep
that i have become weak
unable to think rationally
i know that deep down
that i am stronger than this
i yell at it
that i just want some one who's going to tell me
that my whole being is beautiful
that there will be no world for them
with out me in it
i just want to be respected
loved unconditionally
and treated the way i deserve
for us to connect in such away
that we rediscover ourselves within each other
if i can't have that i told it
i don't want anything at all
my heart grew and told me that it was time
time for me to put it away
for safe keeping again
it was time that i stopped settling
for bits and pieces
of what i wanted
from the one i love
why should he get all of you
it said
while he only gives you sprinkle
its time that you stopped playing
the role of the fool
tonight i took my heart off of my sleeve
and looked at it
and decided that it was time
to wipe the slate clean
and put it away for safe keeping