my voice

i lost my voice for a while
among the hustle and bustle
separating myself from my emotions
putting focus on other things
not taking time to pause
not taking time to think
quickly cutting my losses
not letting anyone get to close
becoming what i said i would never be
i took my pain and turned into a shield
letting it grow into a wall
but a welcomed unexpected
stirred something inside of me
i was able to trust my voice again